I’ll Love you If I’ll Love You When

I’ll love you… IF. I’ll love you… WHEN.

I’ll love you if you think like me.
I’ll love you when you give me what I want.
I’ll love you if you believe what I believe — no more, no less.
I’ll love you if you validate my experiences at the expense of yours.
I’ll love you when you deny your own existence.
I’ll love you as long as you stay beautiful and thin. And young.
I’ll love you as long as you don’t cost me.
I’ll love you when love to you means exactly what love means to me.

I’ll hate you and call it love…
Because love is not of use to me, is not a tool I can use,
Doesn’t give me what I want, doesn’t allow me to have my way.

Love puts you ahead of me.

And that is simply unendurable.