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BlueChristian RESIST video: “Heaven Hears the Heart that Breaks” by Steve Scott

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Divorce (old Cornerstone mag article)

Cornerstone Archives, Issue #55]   Divorce by Jon Trott   Despite reflection and prayer, an oppressive feeling had slowly settled over me. “I wonder‑what’s wrong?.” I asked a fellow Cornerstone writer. Under questioning, the realization of the oppression I’d been feeling became evident. A series of divorces among men and women I’d felt a kinship with, namely contemporary Christian musicians, […]

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Voting: Politics is Ugly… and So Is Life

Voting: Politics is Ugly… and So Is Life

Voting in my hometown Chicago can be fascinating, infuriating, or both. I’ve seen it from more angles than most folks, having served as an election judge (many times), poll-watcher, and “get out the votes” activist (many, many times!). Voting is ugly. This is the truth of it. From the moment you register as a voter, you will discover this. Campaign […]

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A Conversation with Death

A Conversation with Death

I’ve always hated you. I first learned about you in books, crying in quiet horror as your servants’ hands took Anne Frank away to meet you and end her beautiful words, or Kafka’s victim stood in the rock quarry looking up at a figure in a window as others’ hands plunged a blade into his chest. I saw you in […]

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My Friend, My Lover: Sept 2 1989 Until Now Twenty-Five Years of Marriage to Carol Elaine

A video I made some years ago — perhaps my first video, in fact. I feel the same now as then, except moreso. For Dearling…

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Who am I, What is “Jon Trott’s Blue Christian,” and Why?

Who am I, What is “Jon Trott’s Blue Christian,” and Why?

Jon Trott. I am an Anglo male afloat in the fog-covered ocean of middle age. I am a Jesus Freak. I am a skeptic. I am a writer — have won some awards and also have been called a “Satanist” or “Cult apologist” or “Socialist / Marxist” by those who didn’t like what I wrote. I am a communard (more […]

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Regret, Empathy, and Mutual Suffering: A few thoughts on Philip Seymour Hoffman

Regret, Empathy, and Mutual Suffering: A few thoughts on Philip Seymour Hoffman

My wife Carol told me about Philip Seymour Hoffman’s death-by-heroin at the age of only 46. Her voice trembled. Not a follower of Hollywood overall, she has tracked Hoffman through any and every movie he appears in. “My favorite actor,” she says simply. For me, Hoffman’s darker roles leave me relatively uninterested, even while I note his stellar ability to […]

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My Father’s Passing (poetry)

My Father’s Passing (poetry)

This poem has been a part of my grieving process after my father’s death this past February. My Father’s Passing Can’t come up from under grief’s blue-green the tears unshed, wet-eyed from those that have been Sky too bright, sharp light, my heart over-borne The sea of me filled yet sorrow’s torrents coming I sat there alone with my father […]

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Despair’s End (Poetry)

Despair’s End (Poetry)

Despair’s End Jesus you are my floor You are my walls And you are my door You are my windows And you are my room You are my stairway You are my house And the rock it sits on Don’t matter, boy… let the tears run out and down I’ve nowhere else I need to be hide your head against […]

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Dawn Mortimer, Mentor and Friend – March 27, 2014 (repost)

Dawn Mortimer, Mentor and Friend – March 27, 2014 (repost)

[If *you* have remembrances or condolences you’d like to add, please go to Wilson Station’s Dawn Herrin Memorial Page and offer them.] Due to the rapidity of face book communications and so on, I post this tonight without much polish or time to ponder, just wanting my friends and Jesus People USA’s friends to know about the passing of someone […]

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